Thank you all for your emails and notes of congratulations on the new pregnancy. Thankfully, this pregnancy is more resembling the 1st and the 3rd. I'm ok in the morning, tired in the day, try to keep the food in at night. So at least I can still pretty much function and handle most of the demands of the day. I'm just napping more frequently. Like, no wonder I was napping and napping! see this post.
Also feel very gassy! And eating more frequently!
The 2nd and the 4th pregnancies, I was out for the count, nauseated the whole day for 3 weeks, checking into hospital for dehydration and all that bad stuff. We had thought that because the the 4th pregnancy was so like the 2nd, it must be a girl. We were wrong and I've learned that every pregnancy is different. ;O)
How we told the kids...
We were in our van, waiting for papa when I decided to break the news to the kids. I said, Kids, do you know there are actually 6 people in this van now?
And no. 1's first reaction was, is it God?
I said, no, people.
And no. 1 half shouts, is it mama has a new baby!?
And papa, who had returned, confirmed for them, yes.
N0. 3 and 2 were happy and smiling. No. 4 was pretty oblivious. But No. 1 was DELIRIOUS! He was jumping around the whole place shouting so happy and excited, we got a new baby! we got a new baby! It was infectious. One couldn't help but laugh as well.
They've been arguing about who gets to be the first to carry the baby, arguing about it being a girl or a boy. No. 1 wants a boy. He says then the Ong family name will be carried on. (!)
Obviously, with already 3 brothers, no. 2 wants a female companion.
So they were trying to get no. 4 to say he wants a girl/boy, as if the majority vote that wins will determine the outcome. Ha.
Now, no. 4 roughly knows about the new baby. I tell him not to jump on me because there's a little baby there. He digs my belly button to try to locate the little baby. He's so cute.
So are you OK about that?
Some folks have asked me, are you ok about a 5th child? As in, you're not upset, are you? Coz some people take the news of being pregnant again badly, even Christians.
Don't take me as a superwoman. I am so weak and prone to sinning! To tell the truth, I was soooo fearful almost four years ago when I found out I was pregnant with my 4th. The first few days after finding out, I actually made my dearest husband so sad because I was mentally rejecting the baby in my womb. :O(
I kept thinking about how on earth was I going to manage a 6, 4, 2 yr old plus the new born. My flesh didn't (still doesn't) like all the work it all entails. Especially being patient with training them to control the flesh. But you know what, the Lord is in turn using them to train me to be more like Him!
And really, through the course of the pregnancy and when the baby was born, all the natural love instincts kick in. I love no. 4 so so so much! I can't imagine life without my little sweetie.
Head versus Head versus Heart
God has been so patient with me, this foolish child of His. I've had head versus head versus heart battles much of the time since no. 4 was born, fully expecting that this might be the last baby we'll be having. (But in reality, menopause is still far away!)
My Head said, Four children is very good already. We can still manage financially if we keep at this number. Don't want more work. Can't cope. I have uncomfortable pregnancies and a bad back.
Then My other Head said, All through the Bible, God intends to bless and reward His people with children. It's a blessing! Why are you rejecting a blessing?
And my Heart said, Oh to hold a cute widdle baby again!!!
Imagine all the while, God in heaven looking down at this foolish child of His, waiting for the time He can bless me again. :Op
More and more, Psalms 127 is becoming so real in my life. What a joy and blessing to be taught by the Greatest Teacher and to be learning in His school room of Life itself.
Psalms 127:1 <<A Song of degrees for Solomon.>> Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.
2 It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.
3 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.
4 As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.
5 Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.
I've learned that it's foolishness to react negatively to what the Lord
intends for a blessing and a gift! If mothering is my job, then a new
baby must be a promotion from my Boss! ;O) He's entrusted ONE MORE SOUL
into my charge. What an awesome responsibility. Better do a good job.
One more Arrow from Thee, O Lord!
I will use it wisely.
Help me, give me strength to fashion it sharp and true
That it may find its mark where-ever You want it to fly.
Amen
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